My Desire

my desire

Who are we? What is our purpose? What can I do in order to repay for what you have done? Can I be used? – These questions were once formed in the minds of many youths. We want to do everything in order to serve our heavenly father. God, I want to be used in this. God, I want to reach out to the lost. God, I love you more than anything The youth group would agree together that they have once said these things in prayer. The generation Y has accomplished many goals in the year of 2007 in the effort of reaching out; but, what does it mean to reach out with a desire? What happens if we reach out with that never-ending desire?

In the book of Psalms chapter 38 verse 9 in the King James Version, it says “Lord, all my desire is before thee; and my groaning is not hidden from thee.” The meaning of this verse is that David’s desire is in front of the Lord. Whatever the Lord wants David to do, David, without a doubt, will do it. The desire of the Lord is the same as David’s. For the saying “my groaning is not hidden from thee”, this talks about David’s cries and moaning will not be silent and will not be hidden from the Lord. “Jesus! Help Me!” or “Jesus! Use Me!” These are cries that have been coming out of the mouths of the youth. They were also the ones that came out of David’s mouth. What is the desire that we are wanting? A song can somewhat answer this question. The song “My Desire” by Jeremy Camp can show us what ‘the desire’ of God is.

In the first verse of the song, it says “You want to be real, you want to be empty inside”. In order for us to serve the Lord with all our hearts, we have to act and be real to others around us. Having a two-faced personality will only lead us to torment and into trouble. Being empty inside means to have nothing inside so God can fill us up with his blessing and his never-ending love.

“You want to be someone laying down your pride, you want to be someone someday, lay it all down before the king,” the second verse can be spoken straightforward. We cannot accomplish the desire of the Lord while being prideful for the things we do. Being someone someday means being someone that is in the works of the Lord and doing His will. When we lay it all down before God, we are laying down our lives before him. By doing this, we are letting God take control of our lives and letting him change anything. In Psalms chapter 40 verse 8 in the King James Version, it says “I delight to do thy will, O my God: yea, thy law is within my heart.” This verse talks about David wanting to do God’s will, but at the same time, his heart is under the law. His heart is not in the right place where it is supposed to be. In order for us to succeed in the matters of God’s desire, we have to make sure our hearts are not away from God. Having a delight and a will to do God’s desire doesn’t mean a person will pursue in reaching out to the lost. Your heart has to be committed and willing to do his will and his desire. No matter what the circumstances are, his will has to come before ours if we want to do his desire, for the scripture says “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.” (Matthew 6:10)

“You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside, you want to have virtue and purify your mind,” whenever we are in the presence of the Lord, we become and feel whole. When we dwell upon the desire of our Savior, we are making ourselves vulnerable for him to change us and for him to do whatever he wants with us. By Jesus coming into our lives, we are allowing our minds to be cleaned, purified by his works.

“You want to be set free today, lay it all down before the king,” a lot of people are bounded by the chains of the devil’s ways. When we open up to the Lord and lay down our lives for him, he’ll come into our lives and he will set us free for the scripture says “If the Son, therefore, shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” (John 8:36)

“This is my desire, this is my return,” the desire for God is to repay him for all he has done. “I beseech you, therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.” (Romans 12:1) This verse talks about what we can do in order to repay God for his doings. We present our bodies as a living sacrifice, making it our reasonable service to him and for him. Being dead in the world and ignorant of the works of the Lord is not a living sacrifice. A living sacrifice is something that is functional in the church and is willing to reach out. Sacrifice means giving up something that belongs to a person whether it’s precious or not. Before we can give him our only living sacrifice, we have to make it acceptable for him by laying all we have inside down before the feet of Jesus. At the same time, we need to lay down our pride.

“This is my desire to be used by you,” the desire of our hearts and our spirit is to be used by God. “Lord, this is my desire. I lay down my life before you at the feet of your throne. Use me, dear God, use me.” In Psalms 119:135 in the Message, it says “Smile on me, your servant; teach me the right way to live.” We are the servants of God. Having that one humble desire from the Lord will teach us how to live an acceptable life for God.

“And I know my heart is to feel you near,” our hearts were made to feel God’s presence. If we don’t feel him around us, we won’t know he’s even beside us. Doing his desire will make our hearts dwell in the presence of the Lord.

“And I know my life, is to do your will,” as it is written in the eight paragraph, we are the servants of God. Our job is to do his will. What is the will of God, anyway? The will of God can be found in many scriptures in the bible. From the book of Psalms chapter 5 verses 14 through 16 from the Message, it reads “Here’s another way to put it: You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.” I believe the verses can speak for their selves.

“All my life I have seen, where you’ve taken me, beyond all I have hoped,” God has started taking control of our lives the very minute we gave him our lives. Sometimes we hope for things to happen or we hope to go somewhere. God will hear the desires by will us do his own will. Sometimes God would do things beyond all we hoped for. And sometimes God can do things less than we hoped for. It doesn’t really matter what happens. All that matters is that we are doing his will and making our only desire, his desire.

“And there’s more left unseen,” there are many things that we cannot see. If we are willing to do his will in order to see the impossibilities, we won’t go that far. The reason to do his will and make it our desire is so we can have the acceptance of Christ in our hearts.

“There’s not much I can do to repay all you’ve done,” in my poem called “The Price”, it says “Being alone and being betrayed, the price that he had paid, the sorrows that were made, nothing could be given to him as in being repaid.” There is not ‘that’ much we can do in order to repay the cost and the price that he paid. The only major thing we can do to repay him is by taking in his desire and making it our own.

“So I give my hands to use,” our hands are here to do his works. In Proverbs 12:14 in the New Living Translation, it says “From the fruit of his lips a man is filled with good things as surely as the work of his hands rewards him.” This verse talks about how people who do works for God will be rewarded with good things. In Ecclesiastes chapter 9 verse 10 in the King James Version, it says “Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou goest.” If our hands find something to do with the work of the Lord, we should do it before we go to the grave. As soon as we hit the grave, we won’t be capable of doing God’s work. We give God our hands to be used in order to fulfill his desire. Our hands are made to do his desire.



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Danny Naglowsky

Author and poet - I love the Lord and enjoy ministering through inspired writings.