I am in “Battle”, I am standing to attention and I am looking around scoping my territory, I am planning my counter attack. Did you think I would lie down and allow you to take my territory, to sneak into my camp? Do you think after all that I have endured I would just walk away, and say I am done? I am filled to the brim with fury. I have taken this battle personally; it has caused much strife. The voltage has been high; the words have been harsh, on both sides, the air crackles with a spirit of negativity. Every conversation ends up with so much anger, and I thought I was losing my mind. Then it hit me, I was fighting, and it was the same thing again- Ephesians 6:12 that says “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” We do not wrestle against flesh and blood (meaning people or family) we wrestle against things not of our world, but of the spiritual world.
I went into prayer, and I prayed through tears and anger and repentance. I myself, quickly, and quite to my surprise, found my battle was not Ephesians 6:12 as I had thought. I was shocked to find myself being disciplined. I was shown, I had been arrogant, haughty, prideful, and sunk in muck neck high trying to constantly prove myself to others for over seventeen years that came from a very dark and painful time in my life that had resulted in a stronghold. This battle was for me to become more disciplined and more obedient. My God already has victory. God is merciful. I finally realized I do not have to prove myself to anyone, ever again. I am free from this stronghold. Free to be me that there is liberty in Christ Jesus.
I have learned, I do not have all the answers, God does.
I have learned, my wisdom is insufficient; God’s wisdom is profound.
I have learned, to step aside and let God work.
I have learned no problem is too big for God.
I have learned in prayer not to say, “If you can”…. God is capable of all things and I know he can.
I have learned that it is better to humble myself, than to have God humble me.
I have learned that Hope, Faith and Love will always prevail.
Well it is time for me to pick up my weapons and settle in for the night. Remember we are only human, and when faced with enormous tides of battles, we do not have to plan all the strategy. God is bigger than any battle, strategy, fight, or attack; our focus always needs to remain first and foremost, on our savior, Christ Jesus and secondly to keep our two best weapons close at hand, Prayer and “The Word of God”.
